Tuesday, June 16, 2009

Time flies?

One of the biggest lies most parents will tell you is that time flies. One second you are holding a newborn baby and suddenly he is in his thirties and has his own children.

That's simply not true. When I look back at my son's first year in this world, it feels like much more than a year, to the point that I seem to be able to only vaguely remember what my life was before Blake came along. When I see pictures of Blake at three months old, super chunky and unable to even roll over when lying down, it feels like years ago.

Thinking about him as a new born feels like a lifetime ago.

But here's the thing: It doesn't matter if time moves fast or slow. Once it passed, it passed forever and there is no going back.

Blake changed, literally, under my nose. It wasn't a case of him suddenly going "poof" at the end of every month, shedding his skin like a snake to reveal a new version. The change was constant and gradual. So without noticing it, several versions of Blake (all of which I totally adore) disappeared forever without even saying goodbye. Looking at some videos from the first year, a wave of nostalgia crashed on me. It was as if I just remembered an old friend I haven't seen for a long time and figured that maybe it is now a good time to pick up the phone and rekindle the relationship.

Only you can't do that with past versions of your child...

And now Blake is amazingly cute at one year and I know I'll miss this version so much once he moves on to the later stages. And certainly once he fords his teenage years towards adulthood.

When I first held my son in my hands I finally understood my parents in a way I never did before. Now that he is one and I have seen him go through all those changes I understand them even more.

That is how they see me. That is the first impression I made on them. My mom would tell me how she misses me as a baby and I thought she was just being silly. Oh, how wrong I was.

Twelve months old Blake is going to turn into thirteen months old Blake in less than two weeks, but in my heart there will always be a shrine dedicated for each one of those versions. The pictures, the videos, the blog writings, my memories... He's not going anywhere anytime soon.


1 comment:

Jeffer Shen said...

Here’s yet another hint. If you locate your impure element a new rolex replica uk small amount stained. Have a dark-colored sneaker conditioner along with implement merely inside impure place. And finally, implement natural leather conditioner. You could possibly chanel replica sale currently rub it on the total handbag. Tend not to around surplus the employment of your natural leather handbag conditioner as well as you could possibly get rid of the surplus rolex replica uk conditioner which has a microfiber towel. To take care of your shine of your respective dark-colored Chanel handbag, you could possibly implement your natural leather conditioner typically while after divorce lawyers atlanta 3 months along with when you placed your current handbag for you to hard drive. You can actually keep a new chanel replica sale dark-colored Natural leather Chanel handbag when compared with those people shaded versions. Additionally, in addition to these are less complicated to keep up. These are additional functional audemars piguet replica uk luggage to work with not simply pertaining to searching nevertheless perhaps to function. Your current dark-colored Chanel is regarded as basic along with the most preferred clutches inside record involving manner. Your Chanel tote will be the nearly all well-known one of several handbags collections, by making use of classic along with high-quality rubberized placed a good variety.